letting me know u stress to stress me very nice
letting me know u stress to stress me very nice
hmmmmmmm... this word bother me a lot, a lot, a lot .
since yesterday night .
I get what it means .
It just make me cried so hard the whole night and this morning .
Just wanted to tell that fellow I sad , then I got that sentence .
I not stress also , I just sad .
After I got that sentence I think the entire night .
And then this morning I read and read back the conversation .
I really did something wrong ?
I didn't did well ?
I shouldn't cry ?
I really really didn't present my work well ?
Why I must always correct myself ? Is that I'm the only person who did wrong ?
Why things always happen in the fellow 1st day ?
Why would I think stressing you is nice ? I didn't mean to do that...
This questions keep repeating in my head and bla bla bla
Here is one part of the conversation :
[4/9/2012 11:47:12 PM] Me: cannot la
[4/9/2012 11:47:12 PM] Me: i feel unfaiir
[4/9/2012 11:47:16 PM] the fellow : y?
[4/9/2012 11:47:18 PM] Me: that's y sad
[4/9/2012 11:47:23 PM] Me: the result lo
[4/9/2012 11:47:39 PM] the fellow : ==
[4/9/2012 11:47:41 PM] the fellow : wat u get
[4/9/2012 11:47:45 PM] Me: seriously
[4/9/2012 11:47:51 PM] Me: i work so hard
[4/9/2012 11:48:05 PM] Me: but this result is a bit too unfair to me
[4/9/2012 11:48:19 PM] the fellow: haiya
[4/9/2012 11:48:21 PM] the fellow : u work hard
[4/9/2012 11:48:26 PM] the fellow : but ur work nice or not
[4/9/2012 11:48:36 PM] Me: of course ma
[4/9/2012 11:48:39 PM] the fellow : important thing about ur work must be presentable
[4/9/2012 11:48:42 PM] Me: i guess because i cry
[4/9/2012 11:48:51 PM] Me: that's y i got this kind of marks
[4/9/2012 11:48:56 PM] the fellow : ==
[4/9/2012 11:49:08 PM] the fellow : u tell me la wat kind of mark
[4/9/2012 11:49:15 PM] the fellow : u keep telling me this kind of mark
[4/9/2012 11:49:38 PM] Me: B-
[4/9/2012 11:49:46 PM] the fellow : ok wad
[4/9/2012 11:49:50 PM] Me: not ok lo
[4/9/2012 11:49:55 PM] the fellow : u just need to make ur work more appealing lo
[4/9/2012 11:50:20 PM] Me: i just want to know how she give mark only
[4/9/2012 11:50:21 PM] the fellow : like that 1 la in art line
[4/9/2012 11:50:26 PM] Me: if not i seriously feel unfair
[4/9/2012 11:50:38 PM] Me: this one is human communication u know
[4/9/2012 11:50:43 PM] the fellow : u unfair she give u high mark or coz its not high enough
[4/9/2012 11:50:44 PM] Me: is not logic
[4/9/2012 11:50:56 PM] Me: not high enough
[4/9/2012 11:51:00 PM] the fellow : wat u think u should get
[4/9/2012 11:51:16 PM] Me: at least B and above what
[4/9/2012 11:51:24 PM] the fellow: for wat reason
[4/9/2012 11:51:49 PM] the fellow : are u sure u did well in class?
[4/9/2012 11:51:59 PM] the fellow : maby u didnt meet her expectation at some point
[4/9/2012 11:52:05 PM] Me: i did
[4/9/2012 11:52:14 PM] the fellow : wat tells u that u did
[4/9/2012 11:52:36 PM] Me: don't know
[4/9/2012 11:52:51 PM] Me: nvm la
[4/9/2012 11:53:21 PM] Me: : i don't know how to tell u
[4/9/2012 11:53:28 PM] the fellow : maby u didnt show enough confidence? or u felt uncomfortable with the course work and u did it just because u were told?
[4/9/2012 11:53:30 PM] Me: but i know what i did
[4/9/2012 11:53:32 PM] the fellow : go n ask her la
[4/9/2012 11:53:35 PM] the fellow: ==
[4/9/2012 11:53:45 PM] the fellow : u keep telling me its unfair also wat i can do
[4/9/2012 11:53:54 PM] the fellow : not like i go sue her coz she give u a b-
[4/9/2012 11:54:06 PM] Me: i know
[4/9/2012 11:54:08 PM] the fellow : call her out for tea
[4/9/2012 11:54:10 PM] the fellow : n ask
[4/9/2012 11:54:10 PM] Me: just tell u only
[4/9/2012 11:54:15 PM] the fellow good la
[4/9/2012 11:54:27 PM] Me: very sad ma
[4/9/2012 11:54:38 PM] the fellow: letting me know u stress to stress me very nice
[4/9/2012 11:54:38 PM] the fellow: but normal bah if u do that
[4/9/2012 11:54:41 PM] the fellow: lol
[4/9/2012 11:54:47 PM] the fellow: no need sad la
[4/9/2012 11:54:54 PM] the fellow: the most u can do is ask n correct urself
[4/9/2012 11:55:00 PM] the fellow: no point crying over it
[4/9/2012 11:55:35 PM] the fellow: maby its not because she wan to give u b- because she has to go through some other lecturers also, maby some of them very strict n not understanding?
[4/9/2012 11:55:41 PM] the fellow: anyway
[4/9/2012 11:55:50 PM] the fellow: i wan to watch my show n then sleep d
[4/9/2012 11:55:53 PM] the fellow: very tired
I don't know why I always see a person "face" , but I know that's manners .
Maybe I really didn't did well in the subject , but I know I did better than others .
I know I can't compare with the others , but I know I did my best .
I know I have no right to talk back , but I know I didn't did it wrong .
I want to control my tears and my sorrow , but I can't hold back and to tell you .
Is not me when I won't cry , but I always said things apposite from my heart .
I hate words that is harsh , because my heart feel as pain as if it got punch .
I'll never win in a fight , because I know you did the best for me .
I didn't want to annoyed or stress you , but somewhat and somehow I did it .
I'm sorry for what I did , but I want to know what you thinking that night .
I always scared about what I talk , but I never scared to talk everything to you .
I scared to talk my sadness to you , because you always feel annoyed and angry and you thought I'm happy to do that .
Every time I want to talk this kind of things to you , I hesitate . Is because I know my ending will be even sad than before .
I don't mind if you don't know romance , because I know you care for me a lot , but I wonder if you care about me when I feel sad ? or you just feel I love to complain to you ?
I need to express it at somewhere , but it seems like you are the person I can only complain to you .
I wrote it here is because too long to write and I don't want to argue and I don't want you to feel stress and I don't want you to said that I stress you is something nice . If is nice , I won't feel so sad and write so many rubbish over here .
You are my only best friend , best partner , best 'father' , best 'brother' and best lover I ever got .
I really really very sad and I cry along the way when I blog it .
Why I always cry because of everything you said ? I didn't want to .
I'm sorry because I cry easily and make you so angry .
You always make me cry !
By Me to The Fellow
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